I’m dreading tomorrow beano!!! 😢 that day comes & goes every year but it never goes from me Angel, every day without fail ‘that’ day is with me, It never goes & every day I smile & laugh & have a carry on with your weeman but I feel like I’m letting you down or like I’ve forgotten you or something but that would NEVER happen-although I do have some problems with my memory but forgetting you or your brother would kill me!!! Leighton truly is amazing beano it breaks my heart that you didn’t get a chance to know your little brother & didn’t get the chance to (most likely) do the big sister things like wind him up big style-I know you would b’cos i do it all the time but he gets me back, he’s a proper character & the most amazing son I could ask for-I’m sooo lucky to still have him & have him healthy(well mostly) but hopefully we get to see the specialist soon and get these sleep tests done and we get answers b’cos it’s not nice to see him like that and it’s super scary for us both but more him obviously, it has helped that his school hours have been reduced so he’s not as stressed or tired so it hasn’t happened for a few months thankfully & hopefully it doesn’t happen again(fingers crossed) but I know that it will the minute he gets stressed out x emotional x tired-it will happen 😢 Im sorry I’m yapping away Angel but I feel a bit ‘lighter’ doing this as if I’m talking to you, nobody comes on anymore so I can write it all down 💖 I’m gona try write a poem for you Angel, not sure how it will go as I’ve never been able to write a proper poem since I lost you but I will try princess. I’m gona do a candle for your GAGGAD on here just now until I can get a much loved set up for him-more for weeman bcos he missed GAGGAD sooo much x likes to sometimes text his mobile to tell him he loves him x misses him so I think this would help him too x I can do it so it’s just for him x I will just ask him to light a candle or tell a story about him x that way he can write anything he wants with out the worry that someone will see it-but he will most likely show me cos he likes to get my opinion or wants to share with me the way he feels bcos sometimes he can’t find the words(just like his mamma). I miss you so much princess💔 I hope your happy in Angel land beano x hope your behaving x not terrorising the cats-that what we think when our wee Rose is going hyper-it’s you chasing her round the house😻. ILOVE YOU ALL THE WAY UP TO ANGEL LAND X BACK AGAIN X SO MUCH MUCH MORE DARLING, BE GOOD BE SAFE X BE HAPPY ANGEL XXX XXX XXX